Medical School

Joy of Surgery -Te Exam

I’ll never learn. we always joke about how in med school studying has nothing to do with the way one performs on the test. that surgery exam was brutal. the bad thing about medicine is that there is so much info that they can dance around our limited pool of knowledge when they write the test. i can honestly say that i have just taken the hardest exam of my entire life. the thing with these tests is that in a lot of cases there is more than one answer that can be right based on the patient’s symptoms but then our job is to decide which diagnosis is more likely. it’s a guessing game essentially and you rarely come out sure how it turned out. at one point in the test i wanted to cry from frustration- it was as if the hours i had spent studying had been tossed off into the breeze; carrying sand down the beach to watch the wave wash it back in. but there’s another side i learned more information in the last few days than i have learned in months and whether or not they gave me a chance to demonstarte that i derived a certain sense of satisfaction in knowing that one day somewhere down the line the hard work i put in that was not asked about will come in handy.

i apologize if the sentences in this entry are hard to read and don’t flow. my brain is fried, my back is sore from being hunched over the test and i have not gotten a restful night of sleep in days. i gave my best effort to this test but the tragic irony is that the grades are not given based on effort. in three weeks they’ll call me with my test grade- if it’s high enough then i’m done- if not then- well, that’s up to the promotions committee.

when you talk to older doctors they tell you that they look back on their med school years and it was not a pleasant experience. when i look back on these years it won’t be in a pleasant way. i remember telling the interviewer that i wanted a challenging career-
careful what u wish for.

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